Monday, August 8, 2011

Its in all of us

The will to change and make a difference is within us all. We tend to surpress it and shove it to the back beacause we are lazy and want things to happen quickly and easily.  Well its not that easy to will things your way.  Its takes alot of patience and i belive most especially discipline.  Now I have got patience, but I lack discipline.  I think the lack of discipline is caused by my shear laziness.  For example, It takes discipline to wash your dish immediately after eating rather than letting the dishes pile up in the sink.  All because I have too many plates and feel that I can simply grab another dish to serve myself while the pile in the sink waits.  Later on I create a mountain of a pile of dishes and that creates uneccessary work for me.  so people, let us try to work on being less lazy and in turn being more disciplined and I belive that will bring about the change we seek in our lives.....

Saturday, August 6, 2011


So  why is it that we humans always seem to be attracted to what is not good for us.  I mean smoking cigarettes as we all know can cause cancer,but yet alot of people smoke it.  Drinking too much alcohol is not good for us but yet we continue to do it.  speeding on the highway can be dangerous but yet we prefer to do it rather than drive slowly. so why do we continue to do the same thing we know can cause damage to us.  I just dont have an answer for this.  I hope someone out there has an answer.  Life is definetly weird and complicated.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Another day

Another day of fighting this thing called I pray that you give me the strength and power to win the battle against my unwanted body part called fat. Amen.  I look forward to playing basket ball tonite.  Its going to be a 2hour work out.  Its not easy to carry this 360pound body around. Jumping and running is not easy at all.  but wont give up at all.  I am in this race to win it.  And I intend to win with flying colors.  So all my fellow weight watchers and potential loosers (no offence intended) lets rise and beat this evil monster called fat.  stay motivated people.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011


Oh I must have walked for 4hours non stop today.  Oh men it wasnt easy. I had to walk over 10miles twice.  But I feel so much better now.  I still gotta get my diet in check.  That is the  biggest challenge.  So hopefully I play basket ball tommoro.  Keep the spirit up guys.

Sleepless Nite

I just couldnt sleep a wink last night. I have been scratching my head trying to figure out why I couldnt.  I stayed up all night and just decided to watch a movie.  Oh by the way Cowboys and Aliens is a very good movie, definetly recommend that to anyone who likes action.  Then I watched Captain America, another good movie, highly recommended. Oh well still after watching both movies, I just couldnt sleep.  Maybe cause I got alot on my mind.  Or because I didnt go work out yesterday.  Well I will definetly try and change that today.  Dont wana have 2 sleepless nites in a row.  And staying up late leads to those late nite snacking which is not good.  I had some cereal and bread at 5am.  I really didnt want to that early but I guess you can call it an early breakfast.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Same Results

Well its simple logic 101, "if you keep doing the same thing, you will keep getting the same result". It is so hard to break old and bad habbits.  I am so used to eating late at night. Between 9pm and 11pm,some times even later.  So if I am going to win the battle or race, I will have to stop that habbit. 
I just came back from 2 hours of basket ball.  Men I tell, it was tough for me to run up and down the court but I hung in there.  I just simple played at my own pace. Slow but steady.   So I guess that will be my motto.  Slow but Steady. I tell you while you are working out, your whole body just wants to shot down, but just keep going at it slowly and steadily and you will feel 10 times better once you are done.


I personally think one of the problems with loosing weight is getting so wrapped up in keeping track of how many calories or fat or protein or starch we eat.  So I intend to go with an all protein diet and work out more often.  I will try not to eat after 8pm.  Its going to be hard but I will try.  Just intend to take it one day at a time. Today August 1st, 2011, I weighed in at 366 pounds (166kg).  I am not goin to be obssed with weighing myself everyday.  But I will weigh my self once every two weeks.  I will try to stick to the diet as best as I can.  220 pounds here I come.

Motivation!!! Motivation!!!Movtivation

So basically I intend to keep a daily blog of my journey to loosing weight.  I intend to loose over 100pounds. Biggest hurdle is M.O.T.I.V.A.T.I.O.N. Yes, motivation to get up and go work out is so hard.  Most especially when you are jobless and no income coming.  I earn a little bit of money designing websites but nothing substantial or consistent.  Before I tell you what my motivation will be, I have to tell you a little bit of the rejections I have been getting from the ladies.  I met a lady online who was very fat, I mean she was 5foot 11inches and weighed over 300pounds.  I didnt know she was this big because she only had head shots on her profile and told me she was thick.  Well there is a big difference between thick and fat.  I mean Serena Williams is thick, Janet Jackson is thick, hell even Kriste Alley was thick when she thought she was fat.but Gabourey Sidibe (girl who played precious in the Oprah movie "PRECIOUS") is obesse.  So this lady had the nerve to tell me that I was too fat and that I should loose weight before I can talk to her.  I couldnt believe it.  Then I had another lady online who stopped talking to me after we met face to face.  Now she wasnt obesse, but she had some love handles and belly fat herself that she needed to take care of. She told me that I was too much of a teddy bear for her.  So people my motivation are this two women.  I know it sounds childish or even stupid but I intend to loose weight and post my new look on their facebook walls.  Yes they are still facebook friends of mine.  I gotta be honest I contemplated deleting them off my facebook friends list but after a while, I said I would get my revenge on them. So that is my motivation.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

How do I start loosing weight

Well I believe you have to point the fact that you are fat first before you can start loosing the weight.  While I was gaining the weight, I didnt think or belive that I was fat because from time to time I would go play basket ball and I would hang in there with the rest of the guys playing, so I thought I was still in shape, not realizing that I was slowly slipping away from my healthy form.  So now I belive to loose the weight, I have to take it one day at a time.  Most of the people overweight wana loose all their weight in less time it took them to gain it.  It just doesnt work like that. I intend to workout, watch the food I eat, eat smaller portions but more often, stop eating late at night, and drink less alcohol. Yes I say drink less alcohol because I would be fooling myself if I say I would stop drinking alcohol period. Maybe as time goes on I might stop drinking alcohol but for now I intend to take my goal of loosing weight slowly but consistently.  So I will definetly keep an everyday blog of my progress. I will also be posting videos and pictures to get my progress recorded.  So I would appreciate any comments from others in the same predicament as me.

Trying to recall when I started gaining weight

I believe, I started putting on weight around age 26.  I was working 2 jobs, didnt have time to go to the gym no more.  I was not watching what i ate anymore. I had no time for basketball no more.  I would eat alot of fast food and then on the weekends I would go to the clubs and eat really late.  I had no motivation to work out any longer.  I drank alot because of the stress at work.  So rather than go to the gym and work out, I would go get a bottle or go to the bar and drink my stress away.  Then I would eat later to cure the hangover.  And I tell you gaining weight is so easy.  At the time I thought I would  easily loose it eventually once I had made enough money at work but it just got harder and harder to loose and each time I tryed to loose it, I would simply slip back to my bad eating habbits all over again and stop working out.

How did I get here?

People who are not overweight dont understand what it feels like to carry so much weight. Just imagine if you weigh about 150 pounds (68kg) and you were made to carry another human being who weighs as much as you.  I am 6foot 4inches and I have been told that my ideal weight should be around 215-220pounds (97-99kg) but at the moment I weigh about 360pounds (163kg).  I am 140pounds overweight. Being overweight is not cool at all.  I mean the simple chores of life like cleaning, walking to the bus stop or walking up the steps seem so difficult.  Even getting out of bed most times is so hard.  When you are traveling by plane, you cant just sit anywhere or sit beside just anybody.  You occupy so much space and this can be very embarassing.
It makes you so lazy. I know I have to clean my apartment but I just cant bend down like a normal size person and get the job done.  Sometimes I dont clean because it hurts my back or knees when I have so much movement. 
And it really makes you loose your self confidence.  You dont want to take your shirt off infront of other people because of the way your body looks.  You only wear certain kinds of clothes.  You cant just go shopping at the regular clothing stores.  And offcourse there is the constant stares from people. And the sex is not fun for us fat guys I can tell you.  I mean I love sex like the next guy but the energy is not there most times.   
I was never this over weight.  I keep asking myself how I just let my self go like this.  I look back and try to figure out what happened?
At age 22, I was in very good shape.  I was very active and I was even thinking about becoming a personal trainer at ballys fitness club.  I mean I trained 4 or even 5 times a week. I watched my diet and stayed very active.  I played basketball regularly and even joined a semi pro football team.  So seeing  myself this way today really baffles me.